Walking on Sunshine

Who am I?

I’ve been doing a whole lot of thinking, from about the turn of the year.  I’m a nut for diaries and schedules and organising systems and, in January, I bought a FranklinCovey Planning System.  It came with instructions for writing one’s Mission Statement which I duly followed although I can’t now remember what I wrote.  And therein lies the problem.

I’ve just finished eight sessions of Counselling (with Counsellor M) and am likely to be starting longer-term Psychotherapy soon.  The issue I want to look at is that of my identity.  Because I don’t really know who I am.  I know my name (things haven’t gotten that bad!) but, if I were to describe myself or introduce myself, I don’t know what comes next:  ‘Hello.  I’m Laura.  I’m …?’  Who I am changes with alarming regularity.  I’m a Christian, I’m a Buddhist, I’m a Pagan.  And that’s just the religion side of things.  I have a whole host of ‘I am’s crowding round and all wanting a shot at life.  But my instinct tells me that, if I could get the religion sorted out then a lot of other things would fall into place.

I found this article interesting.  The author asks several questions of the reader and states that who we are in eternity is more important than who we are today, here and now.

I read the Bible yesterday – for the first time in a while.  It all seemed to be about choices.  The Israelites had to choose between God and the Pagan Deities of the surrounding nations.  And, when they weren’t sure, God gave them a clear sign of comparison (Baal’s offering wasn’t burned up, God’s was – despite having been dowsed with water).

I think I’m being asked to make a choice.  I know God is ‘real’ (for want of a better word).  I also know that other Deities are out there.  The choice is who I want to follow – for eternity.


Comments on: "Who am I?" (2)

  1. Wow, Laura!!! You are in the midst of a search of all searches!!! I want you to know that I am praying for you today (I saw your request on the incourage site) in regards to this huge choice that you are about to make!

    I want to encourage you to open your heart and let God really speak to you. I can tell you from experience that I was once in your shoes, and I had to make that choice too. I chose to follow God, and my life has never been the same (in a good way) 🙂 I am now living in Israel, doing mission work after living in Africa for 2 years and Brazil for 5! I never in my wildest imagination thought I would be here, doing what I do….but God can change everything in a blink of an eye.

    All that to say that you will be in my thoughts and prayers today (sorry I rambled a bit there)! Be blessed girl!!!

    • notjustlaura said:

      Thank you so much for reading, commenting and praying. I enjoyed hearing about how God’s changed your life so please don’t think you’ve rambled! I think I’ve realised that faith and belief are things that one *chooses* to do rather than things that magically happen. I’ll be writing more about it over the next few days if you’ve time to visit again. God bless.

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